28th AND KEEPS COMING BETTER!

March 14, 2009:

A year ago, I've looked at this inevitable day with a feeling of alarm. It strike me thinking that my age runs off of me, leaving me speechless..helpless. I've thought of those people at my age and maybe the younger ones wherein dreams where attained at their desired prime. It's not that I was a failure, I guess the feeling emerged from those unnecessary disappointments in life that, I think, should happen and is crucial for me to grow and mature in every single way. I was caught in a dilemma that happens only to people who let themselves suffer in a form of 'self pity'. In turn, there was never a moment in time that I stayed lenient. Everything then seems like a race.

Then, the day came yesterday. I was surprised that the minute the clock stroke at 12:01 onwards, loads of texts messages came through. A lot of people started wishing and greeting. Funny, 'coz even those people that I don't know and haven't even met greeted me. Their acquaintance about me was based on testimonies initiated by those very few people who really knew me by heart. Testimonies that I cease to believe as notable for the effects were truly astounding! In short...I was really touched.

Suddenly I was in retrospection. The 27 years of my life flashes back in an instance, it feasted on my brain trying to elucidate my consciousness. Building up repercussions to clinch the notion that somehow, somewhere in this 28 years of being human and humane...I've been great! Afterall, I did accomplished and realized some dream...though not that grand, but essential enough for me to be reminded of the word - GRATEFUL. I have been unconsciously conscious to dispensable matters, kept on bragging with the things that I still don't have, keep pushing myself to the limits...almost insatiable. Thus, alienated and blinded me from the most important thing that I should be aware of.

Sometimes, it only takes one genuine APPRECIATION for man to be absolute or rather..feel absolute about everything that he had gone through. I myself is guilty of that notion. I am yet to learn that certain words are better left unspoken and one way of knowing its gratitude is by a simple SMILE. Moreover, I should learn to accept defeat in a graceful manner...it's not everyday that the wheel is on its upside position. Afterall, great things are given to those who patiently wait and never cease to believe in the power of PRAYER and HOPE.

28 may not be that young anymore but rather not that old. 10 years ago, I envisioned myself having a family and a wonderful career at this certain age. I may not have the family that I dreamed of but luckily I have the career that I truly wished for. Life can be so difficult at times but revealing at the same time. I know there are so much more in store...and I can't wait to see life's offer. Now, it just keeps getting better!